duh_tanna

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 22:00:32 GMT

Ahhh Yes!
Another day down, and despite how hard it was yesterday to not smoke... I did it!

The next couple days will be easy, Sam is coming home for two weeks wednesday.
We're leaving for the weekend, not sure where exactly yet... But i'm just excited to be able to spend time with him.

Alsooooo I lost a few friends this weekend... This sucks, but at the sametime... It's hard to watch people ruin their own lives and I know that there is nothing I can do about it. So the best thing to do... Delete, delete, DELETE!

Sun, 04 Oct 2009 15:57:06 GMT

4 Days now... And this will be the hardest day after last night.
Broken down much?

Blah I do not even have the words to describe how fucked up people are. I'm never bringing children into this world, ever.

Yes!

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 15:20:15 GMT

3 days strong so far

I've thought about it, esp. yesterday when I was hungover all day long.
BUUUUT nope!

I've got this, thanks!

30 Days!

Wed, 30 Sep 2009 16:30:39 GMT

I'm not smoking the POT for 30 days
Starting today

So far, it's only 12:30. I usually do not smoke until around 6 or 7 at night... So coming home from work and not doing it is going to be a challenge. But Amanda is stopping, as well as Aaron who we smoke with all the time.
I just need to give myself 30 days to see if this change will be positive and just continue to not smoke, or maybe only smoke once or twice a month.
Who knows, I just need to make changes.

"Young people who use marijuana weekly have double the risk of depression later in life"
I do not want to be an old depressed bitch!

Worst period of my life

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 15:29:19 GMT

Never have I ever been in the fetal position waiting for my cramps to go away

Not to mention the fact I had an appointment yesterday to get back on birth control so my periods would not be hell anymore... And I start my period 5 minutes before i'm about to leave for the apointment... So another month of pure hell for a whole week, OH and not to mention the horrible mood swings and just over all bitch-face mood for a whole week prior...

Too much info?
Ask me if I care!
BLAAAAAHHH I HATE MY OVARIES/ MY WHOLE FEMALE SETUP RIGHT NOW!

FML!

YEAH!

Thank you textsfromlastnight.com

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 03:29:21 GMT

Sums my life up pretty well right now!

"Pot didnt help. Now Im even sadder but now im afraid of the clouds and the crickets. "

Realized you were the one who had issues =)

Mon, 07 Sep 2009 23:54:18 GMT

Such a good weekend

Missing my shit ass
Yes I said shit ass

WooP!

It's offical!

Mon, 03 Aug 2009 16:36:39 GMT

I will be in Seattle from the 19th of August until the 23rd =)

Too excited to see everything, my plane rides will not be to bad. No lay overs on the way there, but on the way back I will have a 2 hour lay over in san fran, which doesn't bother me one bit. I'd love to everything and maybe go explore for awhile.

Yayayay

I'm Lucky

Sun, 21 Jun 2009 23:54:52 GMT

This weekend just happened to be one of the best i've had in a long time.
Sam came home on friday, we ate asian house like we used to and just sat around the house.
He ended up bringing me home something from each bar/resturant we went to in Key west, two bottles of big pecker wine =) And one of those coconut faces that I wanted so bad. It's a priate face and his name is Sylvester!

We ended up spending most of the weekend at his family's house in Geneva. It was great, but now i'm just sad that the weekend is over and he is back in Ft. Lauderdale.
Hopefully he will be back here the weekend of the 4th.

Wed, 17 Jun 2009 03:00:35 GMT

Some people really and truly upset me
And believe it or not, it takes a whole lot to get me to the point where I will go off.
But believe me, it's been awhile since i've truly gone off... I feel bad for the next person that takes me to that point.
Anyhow, two things you do not talk about when it comes to me, my family and my friends.
And even more so if you're speaking on situations you know nothing about.

This girl has gotten me to this point.
I honestly and truly hope to never see Abby in person.
I've been told way to many things and when you're trying to drive one of our friends who is locked up, to the point that he doesn't want to talk to any of us anymore? We have a problem.
And as for the nickname "fatboy", that has nothing to do with the life he has lived with you. "Fatboy", is who Eric was when I first met him.
We all share a bond and it can honestly be considered a family, we have all made choices that may have adversely affected us. HOWEVER someone who is a master manipulator should not be able to tell someone things that are completely un true, and do not act like you're trying to protect him when you cheat on him, or when you are busy trying to wisk him away so you can make his life misery without all of us around.
I HAVE NO RESPECT for people like this
It all has to do with immaturity, I understand this but at the same time do not like you are the solution when you have been part of the problem for the past two years.
We will see what happens when he is out... I hope to God he realizes what an asshole she actually is. In the mean time I refuse to bad mouth her to him, because he will make his own decisions but he will figure it out on his own.

Ahh I feel better now.

Sorry

Mon, 08 Jun 2009 14:04:51 GMT

My least favorite word ever.
You're not sorry, because if you were this never would've happened in the first place.
Some how it was still turned around on me, I was the one who was wrong.
Yeah not this time, I will not let you make me feel like I did something wrong.

I want to feel the way I felt this time last year, I want my old feelings to come back. I'm just all around very disappointed with his actions. He is not the person I thought he was... And that breaks my heart.

I think i'm going to start working out again, eating right... Now smoking nearly as much, just over all being very productive. Because obviously whatever i'm doing right now just is not working.
I need to worry about myself and thats it.
Because when he decides to haul ass, what am I left with?

Blah I hate being sad
I stop thinking about our situation
And then I think about what happened with my dad
when you find out people are screaming "go home coke head", at your father... Ughh makes my skin crawl.

I just want to go to sleep for a long time
Well just a week
And then hopefully I can wake up and everything will be all better.

Someone make this go away.

Sun, 07 Jun 2009 23:36:33 GMT

So to add insult to injury
my father tried to fight one of my friends this weekend and made an ass out of himself at brandon's benefit...

Seriously?
FML

I need a vacation, actually I need a permanent vacation.
Shit is truly hitting the fan.

Hello blunts, you're saving my life. See ya

Sun, 07 Jun 2009 17:28:06 GMT

I refuse to let someone make me look like a fool
It's happened before with almost every person i've been with, with the exception of David.

& Now it's happening again?
Do I deserve this?
I really do not think so, i've been a good girlfriend. I've tried to go out of my way to not do things that will upset Sam, yet for him it is so hard.
Spending the night in a girls hotel room and not only sleeping there, but sleeping in the bed with them!? TWO girls?
Wtf?

I'm just suppost to eat it, just deal.
I refuse to have someone make me look like a fool.
He didn't call, didn't send me a text nothing... Well because he knew he was wrong.
I just want to believe that not all "men", are like this.
The last two people (including sam) have broken my heart.
I do not deserve this

I'm better than this

I miss him so much

Tue, 02 Jun 2009 00:02:51 GMT

I would love nothing more than to wake up to your face every single morning of my life.

Stuuuupid ass work that requires traveling... Really makes me mad!

Mon, 01 Jun 2009 05:23:04 GMT

I had such a good weekend
Managed to stay awake the whole time, to and from the keys.
Did the tourist thing the first day, It was also Londo's birthday so we tried to get a drink at most of the bars. Went out later that Night with Megan & Fermin =) Had such a good time and Megan & I rode the mechanical Bulllll, whooo. Hah

Now i'm just having a hard time falling asleep
I took tylenol PM an hour ago, I should be asleep by now...
It's hard to get used to sleeping with Sam again and then two nights later here I am back by myself. I miss having him here all the time, but it's money and with this money we're closer to getting our own place... Closer to getting our life started, but it doesn't mean I do not miss him in the time in between...

Now i'm going to smoke and see if that will bring sleeeeep.

Goodnight

Wed, 22 Apr 2009 14:33:34 GMT

Nothing like chipping your tooth while doing "activites"... FML!

I'm going crazy

Tue, 31 Mar 2009 13:16:31 GMT

I've got a huge decision to make

This will change everything

But there comes a point when you cannot take anymore

...

I just want to scream

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 12:59:32 GMT

Holy fuck shit

this past 24 hours has felt like a kick in the vaj... Over and over and over again.

Cook-out at zeee beach

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 21:32:48 GMT

Sam and I are thinking about having a cookout this weekend
Playlinda
Saturday
Noon-ish
5 Parking Lot

Woo yay fun
Everyone should come =)

Love this song

Sat, 31 Jan 2009 06:12:11 GMT

She got her daddy's tongue and temper
Sometimes her mouth could use a filter
God shook his head the day he built her
Oh, but I bet he smiled.
She loves and lives her life unruly
Tears up that dirt road up in a dualy
Dangerous, absolutely.
And in a little while...
She'll be roundin' that corner on three wheels
Ain't slowin down, yellin "Come on, jump in"
Always up to somethin, crazy got nothin' on her

Chorus:
She ain't right, she ain't right
She ain't right, but she's just right for me

She says she wants to meet my momma
I said, I don't think you oughta
Be like mixin' oil and water
But by midnight she had
momma on the coffee table dancin'
Comin' unwound
Good God I swear, can't take her anywhere
What's the girl gonna do next

Chorus:
She ain't right, she ain't right
She ain't right, but she's just right for me

Every once in a while she'll give me that smile and say,
I just don't see somebody like you lovin' somebody like me
She ain't right, naw she ain't right
She ain't right

She ain't right, she ain't right
She's just right, she's just right,
She's just right for me
Mhhmmm she's just right, she's just right.
She ain't right, she's just right for me.

I am so in love
He is amazing

Thu, 15 Jan 2009 23:40:37 GMT

I'm not sure if it is the weather
Or just everything in general
Or who the efff knows

I am in the best moood!

Oh the baby

Tue, 23 Dec 2008 13:38:34 GMT

Drinking on a work night always seems like a good idea
Until the next day
I'm actually not too hungover at the moment
More tired than anything else.

Damn 25 cents for beer last night at beef o' bradys...!
Did me dirty

Oh and smoking a blunt after I was completely hammered, after not smoking a blunt for a long long time...
Not intelligent!
I had a bad case of the spins
& in turn ended up wanting to go home at 11 o'clock

But I ate a whole lot of food and fell alseep in my clothes
So um it turned out to be a decent night!

I love atmosphere

Thu, 18 Dec 2008 05:04:35 GMT

Here comes a beer, catch all your tears
Drink the remedy, forget about your problems
Here comes a shot, lose all your thoughts
Drink the remedy, forget about your problem
This one's on me, fix you for free
Drink the remedy, forget about everythang
This one's on me, got what you need
And take your medicine, you'll feel better friend

Sun, 23 Nov 2008 05:02:32 GMT

I was very very disappointed in my drinking ability
I used to be the light weight, the one beer drunk.
But over the past 3-4 years i've built up quite the tolerance... Whether that is good or bad, i've been able to handle my alcohol, in very large amounts.

But last night just did me dirty
3 beers before the pub, jagerbomb as soon as we get there... 2 more beers, and I am all sorts of shit faced.
Sam ended up taking me home, I was a drunken little bitch.

But even sam brought up that he has seen me down some alcohol... & last night it was right back to my light weight days.
Damn living on my own and not eating all the time anymore
I blame the weight loss

This post really has no point, but thought I would share.

But on a good note
My boss is going to write a letter for me on monday
Stating I had to leave Tampa to take this job... Hopefully this will make it to where I no longer have to pay this large amount of bullshit. But who knows, at this point i'm just not stressing about it as much.
There are some ways out, if not i'll make payments to the bastards.
No taking out loans, I qualified for one... But the interest rate was out of this world, and I decided to pass.

My new years resolution...
Pay off two credit cards, pay my bills on time & just become a whole lot more responsible with moooolaaaaaa...

Yeaaaah boiiii

Sigh of relief

Wed, 19 Nov 2008 00:12:09 GMT

I'm going to take care of this on my own
going to the bank tomorrow to see if I can qualify for a 2000.00 loan
& put my truck up for collateral

If that doesn't work
My mom said she will take a 2000.00 loan through a company she had done it through before, and I will just make the payments.

I can breathe now
Just a minor bump in the road
and just a huuuge wake up call
Never get into anything you cannot get yourself out of.